You may think me a bad parent for this..

In an effort to try and not internalize this, I'm going to be brutally honest. Gavin is driving me absolutely fucking crazy. I love him. I truly do and I know that for the most part, this isn't his fault, but holy shit, I'm going to lose what's left of my mind. Gavin is a really amazing person and he has so many admirable qualities. He's kind, helpful, respectful, never gives up, never complains and always has a smile on his face. Gavin is the kind of person who would do anything for anyone, even at his own expense. That being said, Gavin is also very difficult to coexist with. He talks incessantly, freaks out over every single mistake he makes, he tries to parent his younger brothers, manipulates and…

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I couldn’t be prouder

We have a somewhat busy day today. First of all, it's Elliott's birthday. He turned 13 years old over night but we actually celebrated last night. Happy birthday Elliott... We love so much and couldn't possibly be any prouder of who you are. ☺ We were originally looking at a possible snowday and that would have been cool, but it would have also complicated things today as well. Seriously though, who wouldn't want to have a snowday on their birthday. 😉 The reason it would have complicated things is because I have to get Lizze to the Cleveland Clinic this afternoon. If they'd had a snowday, it would have turned into a family trip. That's wouldn't have been good for anyone. As we get this week off to a start,…

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#Meltdowns, Surgery and 13th Birthday’s

Well shit. It looks like we won't be using our new snow shovels this weekend. Apparently, the almost 10 inches of snow we were supposed to get, has become a dusting to 2 inches. Bummer.... Anyway, Lizze isn't feeling well this morning and Emmett's on edge. Meltdowns have been abundant and it's slim pickins in regards to my sanity. Gavin is super talkative today, not that it's a huge surprise. I'm really trying to be patient with him because he doesn't seem to be in control of his verbal assault on my ear drums. Am I frustrated? Yes. Am I overwhelmed by him constantly talking? Yes. Am I angry with him? No, not at all. Elliott for his part, is having a relatively good day. He's excited about his birthday…

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Why can’t Emmett catch a break?

It's been a long night. Mr. Emmett is not feeling good and he seems to be dealing with a really bad headache. This poor kid can't seem to catch a brick. We were finally able to get him to fall asleep and I'm really grateful for that. He was absolutely miserable but ended up falling asleep in the recliner. We let him sleep for a little while before we tried to move him back to his bed. Thankfully, we were able to move him to his bed without too many issues. I'm really, really hoping that Emmett feels better in the morning. I hate seeing him in pain and I wish there was more I could do. I'm going to go ahead and cut this short because I need to…

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Some #Autism parenting frustrations and obstacles

Last night was one of those rare moments in life where my wife and I had a childless house. While we might get a break or two a month, typically there's still someone home with us and makes it much less of a break. The reason for that is Gavin. Gavin causes too many problems with his brothers if all three of them are together at the same time. It triggers fighting and things get ugly. Unfortunately, there's really no getting through to Gavin because he's not one to learn from experience. Essentially, the problem arises from Gavin wanting his way, all the time when he's at either one of his Grandparents houses. He's very good at manipulation in these situations and as I said, it's very upsetting to his…

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My wife finally got her medical #marijuana card and here’s how it went

We had a really interesting day today and actually, it was quite positive. We made some major progress in our quest to find Lizze some relief from all that she suffers from. I mentioned in a sorta offhand way recently, that Lizze has been using CBD oil and is scheduled to be evaluated for a medical marijuana card. Medical marijuana has recently been legalized in the State of Ohio and since we've literally tried everything conventional to help her with her migraines, this was all we had left to try. The CBD oil has been helping but the goal is to have both options available in order to best ensure a better quality of life. Her appointment was yesterday and it went well. I'll let her go into the details…

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I’m a bit on edge today

We've got a really busy day ahead of us. Lizze has an appointment in Akron and it seems like they're running behind, at least a little bit. Gavin is with my Mom and if need be, the boys will be picked up from school by her as well. We aren't sure what time we will be getting home. It was going to be a close call to begin with but considering there are several people ahead of us and our appointment time was 10 minutes ago, it's gonna be awhile. 😔 Depending on how this goes, we may have a few stops to make on the way home. I'm tired and stressed out. I've been fighting a headache and I have a huge knot on the back of my neck.…

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The #meltdowns were frustrating but I feel like we won the day anyway

As with every other Tuesday night, the kids had therapy tonight. The bulk of it was focused on Elliott and trying to help him. I'm not sure if we really got anywhere with him because there are some significant issues with perception we're trying to overcome. The way he perceives things is sorta skewed and inaccurate. This leads to issues with communication and that's been leading to problems. While I don't think anything was resolved tonight, I want to give Elliott some serious credit for willingly sitting down and having a conversation about all of this. ☺ 💙 I know he didn't want to talk but he was very cooperative and did a great job of expressing himself, in what was a very emotional situation for him personally. I'm very…

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