Read more about the article Gavin had a HORRIBLE night
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Gavin had a HORRIBLE night

This will be quick because we've not had a good evening. Gavin has been freaking out all night. He self-injured and hit the wall, quite hard actually. I'm exhausted but I wanted to let you guys know what's going on with his meds. It's been decided that Gavin will stop Clozapine. We're doing this over the next 3 weeks and while we are concerned about what this potentially means, it's clear that it's in his best interest. I'll talk more about the issues we had tonight, later today. For right now, my head is pounding and I'm so fucking stressed out I can't take it. I need to go to bed and try to sleep this off. Stay tuned.

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March 18, 2019
Read more about the article I’m taking back control over my life this week
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I’m taking back control over my life this week

I'm not looking forward to this week. We have a huge decision to make in regards to Gavin's medication and I have oral surgery scheduled for this Friday. I feel absolutely zero excitement for either of these things and frankly, I'm very much on edge. Doing right by Gavin is a very difficult task because it's rarely black and white. In most cases, it's complex, convoluted, confusing and utterly grey. There's no clear cut right or wrong answer and we often find ourselves having to pick between several terrible options. As far as my oral surgery goes, I'm pretty freaked out. I was traumatized during emergency oral surgery as a small child and so there's a whole lot of baggage here. I'm having my 3 wisdom teeth removed and the…

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March 18, 2019
Read more about the article A very difficult but necessary decision
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A very difficult but necessary decision

Lizze and I have come to a very difficult but necessary decision over the weekend. In the morning, Gavin sees his psychiatrist. When we see him, Lizze and I are going to discuss pulling Gavin off of Clozapine. Why in the world would we want to take our Autistic and Schizophrenic 19 year old son off of the only antipsychotic that has ever worked? That's a great question. Put simply, Lizze and I are very concerned about Gavin's ever increasing level of confusion, especially in the first 5 or 6 hours following his morning dose. He's been on Clozapine for a very long time but in recent years, we've had to decrease his dose because his body wasn't handling it as well as it once had. We've run into things…

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March 18, 2019
Read more about the article It’s been a long weekend
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It’s been a long weekend

We had a really long day yesterday but it was a pretty good one. I took the boys walking in the morning and everyone had a great time. We saw the lonely duck and for the second time, it flew from across the park, landed a few feet from us and walked right up to Emmett. This duck seems to have a thing for Emmett because the last time I had Emmett walking with me, it made a beeline from across the other side of the park, crossing the creek, hopping out and waddling right up to Emmett. It's a pretty unique experience and one that Emmett's getting a big kick out of. After the park, we made it home in time to get cleaned up, pick up Lizze and…

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March 17, 2019
Read more about the article Not a good way to start the day
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Not a good way to start the day

I woke up to the kids fighting this morning. I should be a bit more specific by saying that it was Elliott and Emmett. Gavin was in his room, most likely quietly running a mission. The boys have been at each other's throats since they woke up and if I don't intervene, this will end up dictating the course of our day. We have my niece's first birthday this afternoon and they need to be in a better place before we can pull that off. I'm making everyone get dressed and we're going for a walk. The kids don't get enough exercise as it is and when they are full of negative energy, life is so much harder for everyone. Going for a simple walk, will help them to find…

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March 16, 2019
Read more about the article Supporting #Autistic Artists with Harish Bikmal
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Supporting #Autistic Artists with Harish Bikmal

I'm really excited about this weeks episode of The Autism Dad Podcast. I interview Harish Bikmal (an Autism Dad) about his Social Benefit Enterprise called Zenaviv and how they are helping Autistic artists. This is some very cool stuff and I really wanted to bring this to my audience as a whole because so many of you could potentially benefit from this.  In a nutshell, Zenaviv embraces and promotes artists with Autism or other special needs. They bring their amazing talents to the public and help the artist earn a living. Each artist retains at least 66% of each sale and retains all rights to their work, as well as the original art itself.  Lizze and I were sent some samples of what these amazingly talented artists are producing and…

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March 15, 2019
Read more about the article Today’s Victory: The Good, The Concerning and The Cause for Celebration
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Today’s Victory: The Good, The Concerning and The Cause for Celebration

Yesterday after picking the kids up from school, I dropped Elliott off at home before taking Emmett to an ADHD med-check. When a child is on ADHD medication, there are frequent medication checks for a couple of reasons. First and foremost, it's about making sure the medication is still the correct medication for the child in question, the dose is still correct, the child is benefiting from the medication and updating the doctor of any changes in the child's life that should be noted. Secondly, med-checks occur because ADHD medications are usually highly controlled substances and you can't get refills without an appointment. That's just the way it is and while it can be a pain in the ass at times, it's the right approach. We're very careful with medications…

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March 14, 2019
Read more about the article Emmett set the bar for bravery incredibly high today
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Emmett set the bar for bravery incredibly high today

It's been a really long day but it's also been a pretty good one as well. Emmett's dentist appointment went well and he kicked ass. They fixed his tooth and he didn't even need numbed up. I think it took a total of 5 minutes. He was nervous but very brave and I couldn't be prouder. ☺ This means that the bar is set pretty high in the bravery department and it's gonna be tough for me to live up to that next week when I have my wisdom teeth removed. I'm absolutely terrified of having this done but I need to set an example and preferably, a positive one. ☺ I also was able to spend some one on one time with Emmett today. I took him to lunch…

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March 12, 2019