My personal struggle with #depression

I mentioned yesterday that depression is becoming more of a struggle for me lately. Monday was pretty rough for me but yesterday was a little better. It's so hard to describe what this is like, especially if you've never experienced depression before. I can say that it impacts pretty much every aspect of my life and that motivating myself to do anything is pretty fucking difficult. It's not laziness at all and it fucking drives me crazy when people assume that. It's more like thinking about doing anything is so overwhelming that it's crippling. I know that's hard to understand. There are times that I get stuck inside my own head and that's not always the most friendly place for me to spend time. When I'm in my head, I…

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4 Tips to Keep Your Family Healthy

4 Tips to Keep Your Family Healthy There are many jobs that you are going to need to take on as a parent. Some are harder than others, but they all need to combine to help you and your family stay safe, secure, healthy, and happy. It may sound like an impossible job, but the truth is that, once you get into a good routine, things will start to fall into place and come much more naturally. It’s getting into that all-important routine that is the important part, and that can be hard, especially if you have other commitments. One of the things that you must always make time for, but which, when you actually look more closely into it, is something that can do everything we have mentioned above,…

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How Lockdown Can Warp Your Sense Of Time

Few people with any social conscience would question the reasoning behind lockdown, when a pandemic that has killed upwards of half a million people worldwide shows no signs of going away. And those of us who understand the importance of not just avoiding infection for ourselves, but also of not passing it on to the most vulnerable, would never resent quarantine. Pixabay - CCO Licence However, one of the things that has been particularly difficult about these last few months, for a huge number of people, is that there has seemed to be no definitive end. 2020 started nearly seven months ago, but it’s been tough to track the passage of time. In some ways, the year could be just a couple of months ago while in others, it feels…

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#Depression is like an uninvited houseguest

It's been a emotionally challenging day for me. There are a million reasons for this and to be completely honest, it got the better of me for a little while. I'm overloaded and that tends to feed my uninvited houseguest called depression. I was able to keep my struggle from the kids, which I'm quite proud of. I don't want them dealing with anymore grown-up issues than they have to. Having said all that, I've had some time to think and further process all the challenges I'm struggling with. Once I was able to think logically again, I realized that I truly believe everything is going to be okay. I'm not suggesting life is going to be easy but I know that all of these obstacles will be overcome and…

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5 Ways To Manage Chronic Pain

Pain is an indicator given to you from your central nervous system to let you know that there is something wrong. Pain lets you know that you need to move away from a fire or you might get burnt. Without pain, you would put yourself in harmful situations all of the time.  Most pain goes away in time. Your body heals and you gradually feel better. But what if that pain doesn’t go away? If you are feeling pain much of the time and it doesn’t ever naturally go, then you have chronic pain.  Image Credit Pixabay.com License CC0  There can be all kinds of chronic pain, and it is essential that you seek medical treatment for the cause of the pain. However, in the meantime, you will still need…

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It’s been a rough transition home for the kids

The boys came home this afternoon. I picked them up about 2pm. I surprised them by bringing Ruby along, which I would immediately regret. We'll just say she's a nervous traveler and leave it at that. She was happy to see the boys and they were thrilled to see her. She was excited to see Lizze as well. I was hoping that Ruby being there would help to smooth out the transition and it worked, until we got home. It's been a challenging day as the kids begin adjusting to being home. They're glad to be back but they miss their mom. We haven't discussed a future visit yet but at this point, it might not be for awhile. The pandemic is getting worse and we agreed that if/when that…

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Parenting breaks are bittersweet for me

I fully intended to publish this last night and I didn't. The boys are already at their moms and I'm publishing this now because better late than never. ☺ The boys are so excited because they are seeing their mom in the morning. I'm dropping them off and picking them back up on Sunday. They've been packed for 2 days and all I need to do is pack their meds in the morning. I'm excited for them but at the same time, this makes me very nervous. I've kept them safe because I've carefully controlled our world since the onset of COVID19. Turning that care over to anyone else introduces unknowns and that makes me uncomfortable. It's nothing to do with their mom. I would feel this way with my…

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Life is rough and I’m struggling with #depression

I know that I talk about the bad days quite a bit and that can be depressing to read. There are so many factors that go into writing about my experience and generally, I err on the side of transparency. My intention is not to be depressing but rather to be open about my Depression. Depression plays a role in literally every single part of my life and it's not easy to manage. Being a special needs parent is very challenging. Being a single special needs parent is even more so. When it comes to the challenge, things like autism and fragile health definitely complicate things. The truth is, my own mental health directly impacts how I'm able to cope with stress and rise to the occasion. I feel very…

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