I fully intended to publish this last night and I didn’t. The boys are already at their moms and I’m publishing this now because better late than never. ☺
The boys are so excited because they are seeing their mom in the morning. I’m dropping them off and picking them back up on Sunday. They’ve been packed for 2 days and all I need to do is pack their meds in the morning.
I’m excited for them but at the same time, this makes me very nervous. I’ve kept them safe because I’ve carefully controlled our world since the onset of COVID19. Turning that care over to anyone else introduces unknowns and that makes me uncomfortable.
It’s nothing to do with their mom. I would feel this way with my own parents, and it would be nothing against them either.
Regardless, I’m happy for the kids because this is only the 2nd time they’ve seen their mom since the end of April.
I’ll drop the kids off and then return home and remain isolated, so they can safely return on Sunday. I’m not gonna lie, the idea of a quiet house is appealing but it’s also going to be lonely.
That said, I have work I need to finish and doing so undisturbed will make it go much quicker.
I was hoping to drop the new podcast episode tonight but I just couldn’t get everything done and rather then best myself up, I just let it go. I’ll get it done after I drop the kids off at their moms and grandparents.
Anyway, this will be a struggle for me because I’ll miss my kids but I need the break and they need their mom. So, it works out..