It’s been a emotionally challenging day for me. There are a million reasons for this and to be completely honest, it got the better of me for a little while.
I’m overloaded and that tends to feed my uninvited houseguest called depression. I was able to keep my struggle from the kids, which I’m quite proud of. I don’t want them dealing with anymore grown-up issues than they have to.
Having said all that, I’ve had some time to think and further process all the challenges I’m struggling with. Once I was able to think logically again, I realized that I truly believe everything is going to be okay.
I’m not suggesting life is going to be easy but I know that all of these obstacles will be overcome and life will continue to move forward. I legit believe that.
It’s tough for me because there isn’t just one single thing I’m dealing with. There’s a constant barrage of things that life seems to enjoy throwing in my direction, while screaming dance monkey dance. Every single one of those challenges are decked out in COVID19 wrapping paper.
When I get into a place like this, I tend to see everything as one giant problem. I forget to recognize that there are lots of manageable smaller problems all lumped together. These smaller problems can be dealt with and removed from my path.
Anyway, I’m struggling a little bit as I’m writing this but I know things are going to be okay.
I have an unbelievably supportive, albeit socially distanced family and I’m very lucky in that regard.
Life is challenging but there’s also beauty in that challenge. We grow from our experiences, both good and bad.
I’m going to bed tonight feeling pretty optimistic and I like being able to say that.
