The boys first official visit went well and we have big plans for tomorrow

The boys had their first official visit since the split and I think it went really well, at least it sounds like it did. That's fantastic as far as I'm concerned because I want as little to change for them as possible. I was a bit nervous because it's a big change for them but it sounds like they did great. 😊❤️ They got home around 2:30 PM and we had a pretty quiet afternoon. My sister had invited us over for dinner but I didn't want to overwhelm the kids. They had just arrived home and I thought it best to play things low-key. In the morning, my Dad and I are taking the kids to visit Cook Forest State Park in Clarion Pennsylvania for the day. It's about…

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I’m not sure where to even begin

The boys will be back soon and I'm feeling a good bit overwhelmed at the moment. I wanted to get the living room gutted before they got home and put up my late grandmother's bookshelves next to the TV. I got the shelves in place but there's a ton of shit I need to go through. I thought the extra storage space would be helpful and we can begin making the house our own once again. Unfortunately, I'm getting overwhelmed and I'm running out of time to get this done because the boys will be home soon. There's not a great deal they can actually help me with at this point cause I need to go through everything and decide what to keep. While I was cleaning off one of…

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I’m very much on edge right now

My first night without the kids was pretty rough. I'm almost never away from them and having the house completely devoid of even their fighting is unsettling. I miss them doing the things that drive me crazy. Is that weird? I had zero plans for the evening. I had a pizza in the freezer and Netflix on TV. It's weird because I've lost all interest in watching anything that I used to watch before my life turned upside-down. I have a DVR full of shows that I want nothing to do with anymore. Maybe that's normal, considering. Anyway, before my evening could even get started, I got a call that my sister needed help and I spent most of the evening helping her. I didn't get home until after 10PM…

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My kids have their first visitation today and this is killing me

Today is a really going to be difficult for me because the kids have their first visit with their mom since she moved out. Actually, they already left for their first visit. Don't get me wrong, I'm so glad that they can visit her because it's so important to have both parents in their lives. I truly, firmly believe that. At the very same time, I'm sitting in an empty, broken home and needing to stop my brain from trying to figure out what the fuck is happening. It sucks and I really wish things were different. I'm going to use the time to get some things done around the house and try to keep busy. The more I do that, the less time I have to think about my…

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It sucks but we’re doing okay-ish

Last night, we sat down with the boys and their therapist to tell them what was going on. They already knew that mommy had moved out but they hadn't heard from her what was going on or been able to ask questions. Doing this in the presence of their therapist made sure that they had all the support they needed. All things considered, it went well. The kids are kind of a mixed bag at the moment. It's still very new to them and it's really important that we get visits started ASAP. They're going to spend the night tomorrow and as far as I know, they're all excited about it. That's a good thing. 😊 We had a decent day today and I'm grateful for that. I kept pretty…

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“Blanket wrapping” is the new weighted blanket…

What is SafeBlanket?We use "safe blanket" in our hospital to help comfort children and adults with several "blanket wrapping" techniques. The SafeBlanket is a durable, functional heavy blanket used to wrap your loved one. The comforting and soothing effects of the pressure help calm patients quickly. We also use it to hold unusually combative patients during routine medication administration (e.g., injections, blood draws). I need your help to gain feedback. As a passionate member of the autism community, I could use your engagement. Please visit our website and drop your email to remain informed of our progress and leave direct feedback. www.safeblanket.comPeople are talking:"That sounds amazing. I have a medical condition that, combined with ASD, had me shaking and shaking. The only thing that would get it to stop was…

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Working to become the leader my family needs me to be

I know I'm so far behind and I'm not keeping up with this blog. It's never my intention to back away because it's an important part of helping me manage the stress in my life. Since the beginning, writing about our life, specifically from my perspective, has been therapeutic for me. I was able to write what I was feeling and then walk away, without having to carry the weight anymore. It's been largely successful and I'm so grateful that it also helps provide comfort to other families going through similar situations. There's a great deal going on in my life right now and writing is becoming more difficult for me on a number of levels. I'm trying to force myself to get back into the habit of writing a…

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