It's been a rough night and a very uncertain Monday morning. Elliott was up well past midnight, unable to sleep. I'm not sure what time he actually fell asleep but he's dragging more than usual today. Emmett had nightmares all night long and is dealing with sinus drainage that's making him nauseous. He's refusing to go to school because he feels like he's going to puke. He needs to get to school. I need to go walking and finish working on this week's episode. This is probably transition related for Elliott and Emmett. They had a great time with their mom and grandparents but it's still emotional and it's still a change. Gavin didnt sleep well either and I'll explain more about that later, because I need to figure out…

It's been a long weekend but we survived it. The kids came home from their mom and grandparents about noon. They all seem to have had a very positive visit. That makes me happy for them and for her as well. Some parents might wish ill on the other parent and even hope that visits are a disaster for them. I can understand the anger or frustration but personally, I want everyone to be happy. I want my kids to be happy, healthy and well adjusted. I want them to have a meaningful relationship with their mother. I truly want nothing but the best for her. In my book, positive visits are really good news. It means that everyone is beginning to adjust and while it's a slow process, they're…

This started out as a reply to a supportive comment left on the previous post: A Massive, Overdue and Heartbreaking Update but took on a life of its own and is better suited as a dedicated post. This is basically in response to comments about my parenting and how I'm not doing enough for my kids. It's so easy to stand on the outside looking in and judge my parenting or assign blame but the reality is that there are very real limits as to what I can actually do because the system is broken. Gavin could potentially get into a day program and that's something on my to do list. The big problem is that funding is so limited. Where I live, DD has to be able to match…