Read more about the article People have been asking my advice on withdrawaling from #Paxil and here it is
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People have been asking my advice on withdrawaling from #Paxil and here it is

I'm not feeling good but for the first time in months, I woke up and didn't feel like I needed to vomit. I'm not nearly 100% but I'm getting there. Quite a few people have been reaching out in regards to my journey and seeking advice about starting theirs. Coming off of Paxil or any other medication for that matter, is a medical decision between you and your doctor. I can only share my personal experiences and what I've learned along the way. The reason I continue to talk about this journey withdrawaling from Paxil is because it's impacting every aspect of my life. It's important to share my experience so others who are considering doing the same thing, know what questions to ask their doctor before taking the plunge.…

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April 7, 2018
Read more about the article Positive changes in my body since stopping #Paxil
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Positive changes in my body since stopping #Paxil

We just got back from this afternoon's appointments and it's been a super long day so far but I've made it this long. ☺ It occurred to me that I've talked in detail about the side effects from Paxil withdrawal that I've been dealing with but not the positive changes in my body since discontinuing the antidepressant. I'm not as miserable as I have been and I just feel rundown, which I suppose is normal for someone living a life like mine. I don't think it's necessarily an unhealthy rundown but more the feeling drained, stressed out and overwhelmed kinda rundown. This whole Paxil thing has kicked my ass but it's getting better and as I mentioned on Twitter the other day, my overall vitals are back within normal range.…

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April 6, 2018
Read more about the article I’ve been off #Paxil for a month and the nausea is still a problem
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I’ve been off #Paxil for a month and the nausea is still a problem

It's been about a month since I took my final dose of Paxil. To say it's been an easy process would be a boldface lie. Frankly, it's been an absolute nightmare. Slowly lowering my dose over 90 days was rough but it didn't truly suck until the Paxil was completely out of my system. Having taken my last dose about 30 days ago, the medication has been out of my system for about the last 25 or 26 days. It's a very short half life and that's one of the reasons it's so hard to come off of. For the first week or two, I was completely overcome by emotion. It was like Paxil had been functioning like a dam and when it was gone, the emotions it had kept…

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April 4, 2018
Read more about the article My kids with #Autism never fell asleep last night
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My kids with #Autism never fell asleep last night

It's been the longest night ever, well at least recently anyway. For the second night in a row, Elliott hasn't slept. Monday going into Tuesday, I think he got about two hours and that's it. He did okay at school the following day but last night was really rough. This time however, Emmett was awake to join him. Elliott never went to bed but Emmett woke up from a nightmare and was too afraid to go back to sleep. When 7 AM rolled around this morning, they were both so exhausted that there was no way we could send them to school. They would be setup to fail and that's not the right move. Both boys went to bed and are currently sleeping. Our goal is for them to make…

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April 4, 2018
Read more about the article Life is NOT easy be we have a great deal to be thankful for
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Life is NOT easy be we have a great deal to be thankful for

The boys had a pretty good day. They got off to school without much problem. I was pleasantly surprised because Elliott only had a couple hours of sleep. He's been struggling to sleep the last couple nights and we may have to speak with his pediatrician for advice because Melatonin isn't helping. I went back to bed cause I wasn't feeling well, still due to the whole Paxil thing but I felt better when I woke up and was able to get quite a bit accomplished. One of the things I'm really struggling with is taking in enough water, especially since herthis whole Paxil thing. I'm making a concerted effort to fix that but the nausea is pretty rough at times and I don't want to think about eating or…

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April 3, 2018
Read more about the article Hopefully this is a step in the right direction
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Hopefully this is a step in the right direction

Emmett didn't make it to school today again, because he's not feeling well. I've been running around this morning but I've got a minute to publish an update before I go walking. Elliott got to school on time and without issue. Gavin's bloodwork was drawn and we are waiting for his numbers to come back. I'm unsure of where we stand in regards to his numbers right now, so I'm a bit nervous for those results. Gavin's becoming increasingly frustrating to work with on his IVIG infusions because he wants things done a certain way but unfortunately, it doesn't work like that. There's some flexibility within the IVIG infusion process but there are fundamental parts that include zero amounts of wiggles room. That being said, once his infusion was started,…

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March 19, 2018
Read more about the article This might actually be progress
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This might actually be progress

I actually had a pretty good day for the first time in over a week. For the most part, I felt like myself again. That's a good thing because I've not been myself for awhile. I had a few rough patches today. I got very frustrated with the kids but I collected myself and apologized to them for losing my cool. When I say I had a pretty good day, I mean I wasn't sick, didn't cry and I was able eat without wanting to puke. I did experience anxiety and that wasn't fun but I survived it. This is progress and I think that's a really positive thing. If things continue along this path, I will be able to push through this and with any luck, put it behind…

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March 18, 2018
Read more about the article This is what withdrawing from #Paxil is doing to me
Depression Confessions / Depression Management / Medications / My thoughts

This is what withdrawing from #Paxil is doing to me

I wanted to touch base and let you guys know where I've been. Since last Thursday, I've been really, really struggling both physically and emotionally. I was doing pretty good, or so I thought. For most of the last 90 days or so, I was going okay. I would feel changes each time my dose was reduced but for the most part, I adjusted well. When I took my final dose last Thursday, I thought I was going to be free. Instead, I find myself struggling more than I ever have before. To be clear, I'm not struggling with Depression, the Fisher Wallace Stimulator I'm using is helping out a great deal on that end. The problem I'm having now is how my body is reacting to no longer having…

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March 15, 2018