Have you ever been so stressed out it makes you sick?

Between last night and this morning, my stress level reached a point where I ended up sick. After I took the boys to school this morning, I started not feeling well. I thought that maybe I was just hungry or something but after eating breakfast (the same yogurt medley I have almost every morning) I felt worse. As life has become more challenging and stressful, I've started dealing with acid reflux. It doesn't always happen often but it tends to show up when I'm really upset or stressed out. It's fair to say that I have a lot on my plate and there are times when it just becomes too much. Between the worries about now needing a new car, dealing with the mortgage company, not sleeping last night, worrying…

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I have to really push myself today

I didn't sleep well last night at all. The last thing in the world I feel like doing is battling traffic, through shitty weather and spending the rest of the day at the Cleveland Clinic. We're going to be heading off to Dr. Reynolds shortly and hopefully that will help me to wake up. Not sleeping well sucks, especially after a day like yesterday. Poor sleep after a day like yesterday and then waking up to the screaming we had this morning, is simply draining. I'm really having to push myself today.

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The screaming is horrible

Emmett is in a horrible mood this morning. I don't know why he's in such a nasty frame of mind but he definitely is. Everything results in him screaming at someone and then saying that he doesn't deserve to eat breakfast or some nonsense like that. All I can say is thank God they have school today because I would make it if I had to deal with this all morning. School will probably put him into a better mood because it always does. It's my goal to ensure this doesn't set the tone for me today. I'm feeling on edge and stressed out as a result of all the screaming this morning.

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This is what’s going to happen at the @ClevelandClinic today

Here's the game plan for today. Shortly after taking the boys to school, we have to get Gavin to Dr. Reynolds for a follow-up and to discuss how he's doing since lowering the Clozapine dosage. The appointment is pretty early so we should be his first or second patient, meaning it won't take all day. 😀 On the way home, we will take Gavin for his weekly bloodwork before returning home to eat a quick lunch and then head to Cleveland for the rest of the day. Assuming we aren't back in time to get the boys from school, my Mom is going to pick them up and hang out with them until we get back. I'm pretty sure this is a 3 hour EEG so we likely won't get…

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There’s good news and bad news tonight

Today proved to be tough for a few reasons. While the car was made drivable, my concern proved to be correct in regards to whether or not the car was worth it to fix. Turns out the needed repairs just aren't worth it. We got the front brakes and rotors replaced because my brother is awesome, but sooner than later, the other issues will become more problematic. What does this mean? Well, we will be able to make it to the Cleveland Clinic in the morning for Gavin's EEG. That's a huge positive for us because we worry so much about Gavin. This also means that we are in need of a new car. That presents quite a few problems, the biggest of which is that we can't possibly afford…

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Sometimes I feel like a dick for raising my voice

Gavin had his IVIG infusion this morning and he did it on his own. This was probably the most successful one that he's done on his own. The infusion went relatively well and there were no physical hang ups after it was started. Gavin did get upset while he was putting the needles in place though. He doesn't deal with frustration very well and has a tendency to want to quit or get help before he's really tried. Today was one of those times. There was an issue with the tape the holds the needles in place getting all bunched up. His first reaction is to panic. Lizze and I were right there but we didn't rush to his aide because we wanted him to work through it. All he…

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It’s worse than I thought :(

I just heard back from my brother, as to the extent of things that need done on the car. Apparently, it needs front and back brakes, front/back rotors, bearings on both sides of the front end, both tie rods and there's a fuel leak. These repairs simply aren't possible. I don't know the total number but I wouldn't be surprised if it climbed near or even over a thousand dollars. At least I know I'm not getting ripped off because it's my brother looking at everything. All I can do at this point is make it drivable, safely drivable and pray we can make it until tax return. That's the soonest I could pull this off. Until then, it's one more thing I have to worry about and be powerless…

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Review: Is the Anker Power Core II 10000 worth your money? (@AnkerOfficial)

This review is sponsored by Anker. They were kind enough to send me some goodies to review and use to help raise some Autism Awareness. The opinions on these products are my own and in no way influenced by anyone or anything. A few weeks ago, I received a box from Anker. Anker is the top maker of portable chargers, USB cables as well as other tech we use every day. This particular box contained their brand new PowerCore II 10000 portable charger. They also included two charging cables as well. The first cable was USB C (most commonly used with new Android devices) and the second was a Lightening Cable (exclusive to Apple). While I'm not going into to detail about the cables themselves, they are top notch and…

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