I feel so defeated tonight

Today is one of those days where I feel like I've crumbled under the weight of everything going on in my life. It's been one of those days where I feel utterly defeated and pretty much a failure. The kids have been struggling this weekend and I've not been able to make it better. I'm doing the best I can but it's not enough. I feel like my attention is divided too many times and I'm spread too thin. That shouldn't really be a surprise to anyone. There are projects around the house that need done and aren't getting any closer to completion. My car is currently in limbo because I'm fighting with insurance to cover all the damages and it's taking some time. The kids and I are struggling…

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A long overdue, deeply personal update

It's been a little while since I've really talked about how I'm doing on a personal level. There's not really a reason for that I'm just a bit overwhelmed and when this happens, it's not as easy for me to write. That said, it's important that I do anyway because it's incredibly therapeutic for me to do so. For the most part, I think I'm doing pretty well. Could I be doing better? Of course I could. Could I be doing worse? You betcha.. I'm trying to manage a lot right now and it's not easy. The balance between work and family is quite challenging, especially when the kids are learning from home. I need to be working but they need guidance and support because remote learning is a very…

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Is It Possible To Study Around Family Life?

As a parent, family life always comes first, doesn’t it? You always make sure to put your children first, before anything else, which is why it’s often extremely difficult to make time for the things that you are passionate about, such as your education, for instance. However, the fact is that just because you’re a parent, that doesn’t mean that you are unable to meet your academic goals, it’s just a case of finding the right approach to study that fits yours’ and your family’s needs.  The good news is that doing so is far easier than you might think; believe it or not, you can make the process of studying around family life far simpler and less stressful than you could ever imagine. You just need to ensure that…

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I stepped outside of my comfort zone and spoke my mind because it matters

I've said this before and while it may not appear this way on the surface, I'm way too self-conscious to enjoy appearing on TV. That said, I've been doing it anyway because some things are more important than my comfort level. I will continue to do so when the opportunity presents itself because I want to make a difference and do my part. Today was one of those days. I was asked by my friends at ABC News Live to speak again, but this time to how I feel about the current status of COVID19 and the news of Donald Trump being infected. I know many like to steer clear of politics but unfortunately, we no longer have the luxury of standing on the side lines, pretending like everything is…

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We’re without a car for a few weeks

We are officially without a car for the next few weeks. I dropped it off at the body shop this afternoon and my Mom was kind enough to bring me home. It was a bit weird because I've not been in a car with anyone other than the kids in 2020. The ride was less than 10 minutes. We kept the windows down and we both wore masks. I had my KN95 and my main cloth mask on cause I normally keep them in the car and I wanted to bring them home in case I needed them. I wanted to protect my Mom and myself and my kids, so we took this brief ride very seriously. I'm so grateful that my parents are there to help when I need…

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Round 3 of blood work for Gavin

It's been a long day but a pretty good one. I didn't write yesterday cause I was not really in a place where I felt like writing. I spent the time connecting with other parents instead and that was really cool. Yesterday, I had to take Gavin for another round of blood work, this time focusing on his liver. I hate doing this because it puts us in contact with other people but it was a necessary evil. Gavin's levels have been off and we have to keep following up until we figure it out. I needed to get this done ASAP because the car goes into the bodyshop this weekend and I'll be car-less for a few weeks. Gavin has an appointment with gastro coming up and we need…

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Remote learning is going okay but I’m maintaining perspective

Moving on.... So we had a pretty decent day today. Elliott had to get his Chromebook swapped out, so Lizze and her Mom picked that up and took care of that for us. That was super helpful and I'm grateful. School is going better and the boys are starting to get into something that when you squint, sorta resembles a routine. At best, it's a bastardized routine but progress is progress. I'm not going to apologize for letting my kids be comfortable while they're learning. This whole thing is a nightmare and I have zero concerns about them chilling on the couch, bed or anywhere else that makes learning a positive thing. As long as the kids are appropriately dressed, in good lighting and they're teachers are happy with their…

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It’s a big day for my kids

The boys are leaving to spend a couple days with their mom. It's been a couple months since they've been able to have actual, physical contact, due to COVID. In fact, they've only been able to visit two times since the March 5th, this being the third. It's been hard on everyone but Lizze and I decided at the onset of COVID that the priority must always be safety. There are people at high risk in both our houses and that has to be taken seriously. Agree or disagree, it's what we feel is best at this time. Anyway, Lizze and her household have just finished up a fourteen day quarantine and I'll be dropping the boys off in a little while. They wanted to schedule the drop off after…

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