Here’s why this is going to be a heartbreaking week for me

We all reach milestones in our life. 

Milestones are a means of measuring our accomplishments during our all too short of a journey on this Earth. 


This week will mark a very significant milestone in my life.

My new milestone will mark the day that my life and the lives of my boys were forever changed. 

October 14th will mark one year to the day that my wife walked out of my life and never looked back, leaving me to raise our three kids on my own..

That night was the most difficult night of my life and it was something I naively, never saw coming. 

Anyway,  every single day since then,  I’ve struggled to come to grips with this life altering turn of events and I’ve been reliving memories that have now become tainted and painful. 

For the last year of my life,  every holiday, birthday, function and even things as stupid as the season premieres of the shows we watched together, have been painful..

They’re painful because I knew that the last time we celebrated one of the boys birthdays, Christmas, Easter or anything else, we did so together, as a

It overshadowed everything.

As I approach the 14th, I don’t know if the boys are going to remember the significance of that day but I hope they don’t.

While living through the 14th, especially as the boys are going to bed that night, my heart will once again shatter. 

I know myself pretty well and I know that I will replay that night over and over again in my head.  I’ll cry and perhaps cry myself to sleep…


As I pass through that day and make it to the 15th, I’m looking at another major milestone. 

As of October 15, 2015, I will have been a single father, raising my kids entirely on my own, for 365 days straight. 

That’s pretty amazing.  😊

I expect that I will continue to struggle as I discover life after but the memories will now below to me.  I will continue to grow stronger as a father and human being. 

I will have accomplished what I would have previously thought impossible. 

Raising my three challenging kids entirely on my own is something I never thought I would be strong enough to do. While our new life isn’t always pretty, it’s ours and I’m grateful for every single day.. ☺

As the 14th approaches,  I’m going to allow myself to experience it naturally and not fight the emotions.  Obviously, not in front of the kids but maybe after bedtime, I’ll drown my sorrow in a carton of ice cream and watch some TV..

Seriously though, I think by allowing myself to feel, I will find a sense of closure that I have been unable to find yet. 

So,  wherever you are on Wednesday night around 7pm, have a scoop, carton or whatever of ice cream, glass of wine or maybe a beer and perhaps send some love and positive thoughts my way….. ☺

Cheers ☺

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  • Darcyd

    Know that you are not alone, went thru the same thing & unfortunately still struggling 2 1/2 years later! Sorry to depress, but things are actually worse for me now & its a struggle to even get up in the morning! Good luck to you after the 14th & hopefully you have a better next year!

  • EllenBeck

    Look at the day as a victory. You made it, heck you were ‘raising’ three kids and one adult on your own all that time.  You just didnt realize how much you had done before. 
    I know its hard not to look across a room and see another adult that you think has your back, but that stopped long long before she left. 
    Enjoy the day, strut your stuff, you are strong, you are a and a Mom all rolled into one.  Let the day pass with a satisfied smile on your face, you have your sons and thats a blessing.
    I think the 14th will go by, your heart wont be broken at all…………….. you have been growing and sometimes growing hurts but you got this.

  • Beth n

    Rob you need to celebrate the 15 as superman. You are strong and smart and you held your together in your own. Maybe on day you will thank her for leaving and bringing out the very best in you. You should celebrate the gift you are to your boys!!!! You rock!!!!!!!

  • Thanks Beth. ☺

  • Thank you everyone for your support. 🙂

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  • RaynetteJones

    just had a coffee in honor of you getting thru this. I know it is terrible, but i wonder if it has been any easier (even with the new set of issues that the boys have cause they dont have their mama) as the year has gone along.