I spent a great deal of yesterday all twisted up in knots. I’ve been allowing things to get to me that I shouldn’t and that’s something that I have to change.
It’s very difficult to allow some of these things in my life to go unchecked because I feel as though I’m not doing everything that I can.
The simple truth is that I just don’t have any control over a large part of my life. I can’t control other people’s actions and there’s only so much that I can do.
With everything I face on a daily basis, I can become saturated with worry and stress.
When this happens, I become more sensitive to certain things and rather than let it go because it’s just not worth it, I dig my heels in and stand my ground because I’m trying to do what’s best for the kids.
Whats best for the kids has become dynamic and sometimes changes from day to day.
One of the problems I have is that I’m running myself into the ground trying to stay ahead of everything.
There has to be a better way.
I’m constantly bouncing between crisis management, damage control, trying to bring in an income from home, working with Gavin throughout the day, watching Gavin deteriorate, attempting to take care of myself and dealing with too much bullshit.
It’s not working or rather, the price is too high.
I just want to make it through the Holidays at this point because that’s probably one of my largest sources of stress right now and it’s looming ever closer.
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