A pretty major update on my war with depression

I’ve been very open and honest about my personal war with depression.  I refer to it as a war because war consists of many battles and anyone living with depression can probably attest to the many battles they’ve fought.  Some are won and some are lost but we keep moving forward. 

I mentioned a few days ago that the Wellbutrine that was added to my anti-depressant regime was causing a pretty significant increase in my average heart rate.  By significant, I mean significant to me.  It’s an increase of 15 – 20 bpm and I wasn’t comfortable continuing forward with this.


I spoke to my doctors office for two reasons this morning. 

The first reason was to get them to send in a new script for my Paxil because there was a glitch at the pharmacy and they lost the script on file. 

The second reason I called was to discuss my concerns and get the okay to discontinue with the Wellbutrine. It’s not a good idea to make any changes to your medications without consulting your doctor. 

I explained what was going on and what had me worried.  They said they would talk to the doctor and get back to me. Towards the end of the day I heard back from them and here’s what’s been decided. 

Wellbutrine has been removed.  I don’t need to titrate down or anything like that because I didn’t titrate up and the dosage was relatively low to begin with.. That’s that and it’s now out of my life and will soon be out of my system. 

Knowing that I still need the extra help, she called in a replacement medication that I’ve not heard of before.  It’s call Buspirone and it’s for anxiety.  I take this twice a day, so I’m thinking it’s not really long acting and requires more frequent maintenance.


The above image is the print out that talks about this new medication, what to expect and look out for. 

I’m a little concerned because there does appear to be an adjustment period that could interfere with, you know, raising my kids… I haven’t decided when I’m going to start this but I’m leaning towards waiting until Friday night when the boys are with their Mom. That will give me a chance to determine how each dose will impact my ability to fully function in a capacity that someone in my position needs to function at. 

Treating depression is sometimes a game of trial and error, especially in regards to finding the right medication at the correct dosage. 

I trust my doctor and so I’ll give this a shot and see how everything goes. 

At this point, I’ll feel better just seeing my heart rate go back to normal. 

That pretty much brings you up to speed with my current status in regards to how I’m managing my depression.  I’m happy to answer any questions because depression isn’t something to be ashamed of and the more we talk about it, the more we can move away from the stigma…… ☺

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Rob Gorski

Full time, work from home single Dad to my 3 amazing boys. Oh...and creator fo this blog. :-)
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