It’s so hard to sleep anymore because I can’t shutdown

It’s so ironic that even on a day when the boys aren’t home for me to worry about, I still can’t sleep. 

Even with the kids gone, I don’t feel comfortable taking anything for sleep because there have been times where I’m needed for something in regards to the boys and I must be able to wake up.

I really have a hard time shutting down and relaxing enough to fall asleep, while I can still physically stand.  It’s been a relaxing evening but I still haven’t been able to fall asleep yet and it’s already approaching the hour of 4am.

On the positive side, I can sleep all day, assuming the boys don’t come home early again. 

With any luck, my tank will run out of gas tonight and I finally conk out… 

I have no plans for Saturday.  I was hoping to get some things done around the house and catchup on some reviews but, it looks as though sleep will be the biggest thing on my to do list.  

Anything I can do to shake off the stress and anxiety associated with raising 3 boys with Autism, can only stand to be of benefit to all involved.  Having a quiet night, even if it’s sleepless, is better than nothing..  ☺


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