Like anyone else, I find myself frustrated at times with my life.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids and I’m grateful for every breath I get the honor of taking with them in my life. I have an amazing family, both on and offline as well.
While much of my life is a struggle right now, I’m always aware that it could be worse and I’m grateful for each day I live to fight another fight. I would never intentionally let my kids down either.
All things being the same though, I do find myself frustrated at times because it feels like I have a great deal on my plate and I just can’t catch a break. My kids can’t seem to catch a break either.
My life has been extremely challenging as well and I just get tired of the constant struggle. It’s exhausting, demoralizing, frustrating, overwhelming and even embarrassing at times.
I sometimes feel like the powers that be are throwing everything they can at me, just to see me dance around.
The reality of being a special needs parent is such that most of the struggles faced are invisible to the rest of the world. The world doesn’t see the reasons you’re so exhausted. The world tends to assume you’re just lazy because your house is a mess or your yard is overgrown.
The world doesn’t care that you have to pay for medications and therapies for your child with Autism and only care that you aren’t paying your other bills.
The world doesn’t bother to look beneath the surface and instead often judges you based on what they choose to see.