The next few weeks are going to be very difficult for me. I’m an emotional person and it’s not easy for me to let go of the things I truly love.
August 24th will be my 37th birthday and the first of three milestones.
I’ve celebrated every single one of my birthdays, since 2001, with my wife. Even if we couldn’t afford to really do anything special, we were still together and that was all I really needed.
This time however, I’ll be on my own and don’t really know what to do.
I don’t care how this makes me sound and truthfully, I don’t miss the person my wife has become. I do however, miss what I thought I had terribly.
About a week after my birthday, I’ll reach the second milestone.
This one is going to be really, really difficult for me. On September 3rd, we will reach our 12th wedding anniversary. It’s doesn’t really mean anything anymore but God is it going to be a really tough day for me.
I’m really sentimental about things like that and I just want to make it through the day without being a blubbering mess. I don’t want to stress out my kids, so I’ll probably just try my best to bury my emotions but it’s not going to be easy..
The third and final milestone for me will happen about a month and a half after the second.
October 14th will mark the one year anniversary that my wife chose to walk away and never look back. That’s going to be difficult because I’ll relive everything that I discovered and everything that I lost.
Again, I’m an emotional sentimentalist and things like the anniversary dates of both painful and joyous events are of great importance to me.
I feel like once I make it through these milestones, the things surrounding my divorce will be a little less painful. I’m so looking forward to that because I’m mourning someone that doesn’t exist anymore but I still have to see. I don’t know if that makes sense but I just needed to get this stuff out..