Here’s a bunch of crap that I need to get off my chest

It’s been a really difficult day for me.  It was one of those days where I desperately needed a break but didn’t get one. I managed but that was about it.

Gavin’s is in phase and he’s been talking my ear off all day long.  I forgot to mention that eariler in the week cause I was distracted by the issue.  Even manic, is absolutely harmless.  He might drive me crazy with his incessant talking and his Legos being scattered in his room but he’s otherwise just as gentle and good natured as he been over the last year and a half.  For the record, if you’ve not experienced a manic child’s incessant talking, you can’t truly appreciate the level of stress and it exhaustion you feel as a result.

Elliott and Emmett on the other hand were absolutely in rare form.

I was constantly breaking them up because they were fighting over everything.  They would get some serious digs in and every instinct I had was screaming just lock them in their room until they work this out and emerge on good terms. 

My parents used to say that to us when we were kids.

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Of course, I wouldn’t do that but when your a Daddy on the edge, you’d be surprised the thoughts that can run through your head… ☺

Anyway, for the most part, the boys went to bed without much problem.  Emmett came down a few times but after a snack, he was back to bed and fast asleep.

As for myself, I’ve been struggling a little bit because this whole thing has got me very overwhelmed.  It’s difficult to even talk about it without either saying too much or too little.  Either way, someone ends up being upset with me.

The funny thing is that while you folks are wanting to know more about what happened or the things I don’t talk about, the people in my life who have the ability to ask me anything they want, simply don’t.  It’s frustrating when the only way anyone can have access to how the boy’s or even myself are doing with everything, is if I write about it because no one is aloud to speak to me or me to them.

Part of the reason I talk about some of these things I do is to help circumvent the communication blockade.  There are rules in place that I didn’t make, that compartmentalize everyone, so no one truly knows what’s really going on. All that serves to do is hurt the kids and shield everyone from information that is contrary to what they’ve likely been told.



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  • julh

    Do the Es have any noise cancelling headphones you could borrow? 😉

  • julh

    Do the Es have any noise cancelling headphones you could borrow? 😉

  • Alyssa Rogers Williams

    I left some suggestions on another comment and also….. blow off the nonsensical info blockade/ban. There is no clearer sign that the other party is obviously manipulating truths or just inventing her reality if she’s gone to the trouble to institute a ban (which she has no legal right to do at all) of communication between you and her parents, who are your boys’ caregivers during the supervised visits. It’s bullshit.

    Noise canceling headphones are wondrous! Use them on long plane trips.

  • Alyssa Rogers Williams

    I left some suggestions on another comment and also….. blow off the nonsensical info blockade/ban. There is no clearer sign that the other party is obviously manipulating truths or just inventing her reality if she’s gone to the trouble to institute a ban (which she has no legal right to do at all) of communication between you and her parents, who are your boys’ caregivers during the supervised visits. It’s bullshit.

    Noise canceling headphones are wondrous! Use them on long plane trips.