It’s been a really difficult day for me. It was one of those days where I desperately needed a break but didn’t get one. I managed but that was about it.
Gavin’s is in manic phase and he’s been talking my ear off all day long. I forgot to mention that eariler in the week cause I was distracted by the Clozapine issue. Even manic, Gavin is absolutely harmless. He might drive me crazy with his incessant talking and his Legos being scattered in his room but he’s otherwise just as gentle and good natured as he been over the last year and a half. For the record, if you’ve not experienced a manic child’s incessant talking, you can’t truly appreciate the level of stress and it exhaustion you feel as a result.
Elliott and Emmett on the other hand were absolutely in rare form.
I was constantly breaking them up because they were fighting over everything. They would get some serious digs in and every instinct I had was screaming just lock them in their room until they work this out and emerge on good terms.
My parents used to say that to us when we were kids.
Of course, I wouldn’t do that but when your a Daddy on the edge, you’d be surprised the thoughts that can run through your head… ☺
Anyway, for the most part, the boys went to bed without much problem. Emmett came down a few times but after a snack, he was back to bed and fast asleep.
As for myself, I’ve been struggling a little bit because this whole divorce thing has got me very overwhelmed. It’s difficult to even talk about it without either saying too much or too little. Either way, someone ends up being upset with me.