We’re starting 2 new medications with hopes that they’ll help

We had an eventful day and I'm fucking exhausted. The boys had their appointments this afternoon at Akron Children's Hospital. The appointments went pretty well. Right now, we're trying to deal with the excessive anxiety and sleep disruption both the boys are experiencing since their mom left earlier this summer. It's very difficult to tease apart ADHD and anxiety because they can present similarly. There hasn't been any major changes anything at this point. We did add a new medication to help with sleep for Elliott and nightmares for Emmett. Elliott is starting Clonidine and Emmett is starting something similar but I can't remember the name. Emmett began his new meds tonight but Elliott will have to wait until tomorrow cause his script hasn't arrived yet. We're hoping that we…


Holy sh*t, I couldn’t believe my eyes

I'm having a rough day emotionally and I'm struggling to find the patience that my kids deserve. I think by most standards I'm doing really well but I tend to hold myself to a much higher standard and therefore, I feel I need to do better. That being said, I'm not going to dwell on the negative tonight. Instead, I want to focus on celebrating a really important victory. Unless you're an Autism parent, you might not appreciate this but I assure you, it's a big deal. The above picture is my youngest, Emmett. He recently turned 11 years old and I couldn't be prouder of who he is. He diagnosed with Autism when he was much younger, we were told he was nonverbal and probably would never talk. He's…

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I’m heartbroken that he thought this

Emmett has been sleeping in my room since his mom left. He's afraid that if he's not right there, he could wake up and I'll be gone as well. There's no way to really navigate this in the short-term and it's going to take time and patience for him to heal. That's said, he informed me last week that he wanted to be back in his own bed this week. Originally, his goal was the end of the year and we're working in therapy to help him through this. Anyway, this past weekend rolls around and he begins having tummy aches again. I figured it was anxiety related but wasn't sure about the specifics. Turns out that he was okay moving his clothes back into his and Elliott's bedroom but…


A BIG step in the right direction

For the first time in awhile, I'm parked at the school and waiting for both of the boys to be dismissed. I'm so proud of them. I know it's not easy right now and school is difficult but we have a find a way thorough this dark time in our lives and journey towards a better day. I feel like today was a step in the right direction. We may still face difficulty in this area going forward but for today, they did amazing. So proud of you boys.. ☺ ♥


The most stressful and amazing weekend ever

I haven't written much this weekend. If you follow me on Twitter, you are probably more up to date. Twitter is the best place to keep up with our adventures, especially when I don't have the time or energy to write here. You don't wanna be left out do you? No? Great!! Maybe you should click the link above and then click the follow button. Joking aside, it's been an incredibly stressful weekend but ultimately a very positive one. The main focus was dealing with the car situation or rather the lack of car situation. I do not like car shopping. In fact, it's quite literally one of my absolute least favorite things to do, but sometimes one doesn't have a choice. Emmett and I went car shopping on Saturday.…


Time, Patience and Bribery

After a tiny bit of distraction, a smidgen of wizardry and shit-ton of patience, I was able to get the kids to school this morning. To be completely honest, there might have been a little bribery as well. Today was a more complicated day because there were several moving parts that got us here. It's been an emotional 5 or 6 weeks to begin with. The kids had a very emotional therapy session with their mom this week. It was a mixed bag but big picture, it was still positive. Both boys have struggled a bit more since then but I think it was just the high level of emotions that sorta took a toll. Emmett informed me last night while at school that day, a staff member or members…


No Shirt No Shoes No School

Emmett went to bed not feeling good and still isn't feeling good this morning. Neither is Elliott. They had a blast at the movie last night and didn't even get to bed that late. They're both very stressed out and that would take a toll on anyone. Elliott's hip hurts and Emmett's stomach is upset. Both are going to school because if they don't, they won't be able to visit their mom tonight. If they are too sick to go to school, they're too sick to go anywhere. That's how we've always handled things like this. I'm pretty sure their mom would support that decision. I only push this because it's most likely emotionally based and as shitty as it is that they have to be dealing with this fucked…


Trying to dad-gineer Emmett’s Halloween costume early this year

I wanted to do a quick update in regards to figuring out the boys Halloween costumes for this year. It's a bit of a challenge because they are very particular but I'm making progress. This is really important to them this year and I suspect it's a positive distraction. Elliott and Emmett want to go as Sam and Dean Winchester, respectively. At the moment, I'm focusing on Emmett's costume because it's going to require some dad-gineering. The most important piece of Emmett's costume for him is the first blade. If you've ever watched Supernatural, you're familiar with what that is. If you're not, here's a picture. You might need to zoom in a bit but you get the idea. This is super important to Emmett and the cheapest knockoff we…