Life sucks right now but there’s still things to be grateful for

It’s been an interesting week thus far. Interesting is probably definitely the wrong word because I should say stressful. I’ve been really stressed the last few days, more so than normal.

I’m really beginning to struggle with anxiety and fighting it is wearing me down both emotionally and physically.

This has been sorta creeping up on me and went largely unnoticed because I thought it was just part of my depression. I also rationalized it because there’s a shit load of practical reasons for me to be anxious.

The tipping point for me was this weekend when I thought I broke one of my molars. I’ve known something wasn’t right for a few days and had scheduled an appointment with my dentist for this week.

Unfortunately, during our poor man’s date night, I was eating some ice cream and a chunk of what I thought was tooth was on my spoon. I didn’t feel anything and hadn’t bit into anything so I didn’t understand what had happened.

I pretty much went into a tailspin for a couple of days because I was in a bit of pain and the fear of the dentist just sorta nudged me closer to the edge.

I went in yesterday and it was just a filling that had fallen out. I guess it wasn’t properly done and just needed to be fixed. It was a painless ordeal and they were super awesome about it.

It’s just a lot of things piling up and I feel like I’m drowning sometimes. The boys are struggling for various reasons. Gavin is in a great mood but he’s struggling as well. Lizze is in insane amounts of pain from her migraine but there’s hope on the horizon and I’ll talk about that in a later post.

Lizze lost her grandmother end of October and a few months later I lost my grandfather. It’s been a lot and life doesn’t slow down enough to allow us to process things before something else comes along to knock us off our feet.

Anyway, I’m going to start looking for a psychiatrist and or maybe increase cognitive therapy. I just need build up some solid ground around me.

While things are definitely a struggle right now, we’ve also got alot to be grateful for.

Everyone is physically healthy. We have a roof over our heads and food in the kitchen. Our new stove let’s us cook things we haven’t been able to in forever and that’s awesome.

I think I found someone insanely over qualified to remove my three wisdom teeth and that’s incredible. I’ll explain more on that when I know more but this has been weighing on me.

While we said goodbye to my grandfather a week ago, that event brought us back together as an extended family and that’s something he would have wanted.

As I said, we still have a lot to be grateful for. That doesn’t make the rest of it any easier to deal with but it’s a huge help in regards to maintaining perspective.

Rob Gorski

Full time, work from home single Dad to my 3 amazing boys. Oh...and creator fo this blog. :-)
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Maria Hall

Canton psychiatry at Belden village is decent. I like that they talk to you and listen about meds. My son was going there. Sadly he refused to take meds at all so it was wasted time for us.


Sounds good. Talking to someone can only help, although you might have to check out more than one therapist to know.

kimmy gebhardt

I think cognitive therapy could be a really good thing for you. Hopefully you’ll be able to find a psychiatrist or therapist who can help you through. Is the guy you went to before (I think he was an old college professor of yours?) not available? Also, this next question is not judgment- I’m genuinely curious what has changed- I thought you didn’t like therapy because you had a problem with people being paid to listen to you? In any event, I think having someone just for you will do wonders. I know you love Dr. Pattie but perhaps her familiarity with the situation is somewhat of a hindrance to her being able to help you as an individual. Best of luck with it all.

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