I’m trying very hard to get our lives on a course that will lead us to a better destination. It’s actually quite consuming to know that we need some pretty big things in a pretty serious way and I’m not able to make anything happen. I’m incredibly frustrated and overwhelmed by all of these challenges.
There are too many priorities and I don’t know how to triage everything anymore.
Right now I’m working very hard on stabilizing our income and that’s no easy task, especially considering all the obstacles in my path. Once I get our income stablized, I desperately need to replace our car. I then need to get us the hell out of our house and neighborhood. Both of those things are weighing very heavy on me because they directly impact my family’s quality of life and in some cases, physical safety. As for the car, I has serious doubts it will even be drivable in a year.
I’ve been able to get us to a point where we can pay our bills, for the most part at least. That’s significant progress and something I’m very proud of. Unfortunately, doing more than that right now requires time, energy knowledge that I simply don’t have enough of.
When I stop and look at our life, I see so many things that need to be addressed. I’m not ashamed to say that I’m so overwhelmed at times I simply don’t do anything or not enough of anything becaue I don’t even know where to start.
I was talking to a friend of mine, a fellow Autism Dad, and this was the topic of our conversation. He’s the first person to truly get our situation. There are no baby steps to get us out of this. It requires an ability to make a significant leap and at this time, it’s not possible.
That’s not stopping me from continuing to make progress but there comes point where we will have to make a giant leap in order to move forward and I don’t know how I’ll pull that off.
Anyway, this is just some of the many things weighing me down right now.
I keep plugging along because what else am I going to do. As much as I sometimes wish I could just give up, that’s never really an option.
I’m overwhelmed and not coping so well. That said, tomorrow is a new day and who knows what will happen.. ☺
Now that Lizzie is feeling better with the migraines, is there any way you could take a part time job while the boys are at school? I know most gas stations, at least around here, start at, at least $10 an hour. That could be a step forward . And with Lizzie feeling better she could sit with Gavin during the day, he seems pretty room bound these days from what I read
I know this has been mentioned before and I believe you said you may have already done this in the past, but maybe it’s time to re-look at sitting down with a credit councilor and work out a budget and ways to pay off existing debt and save for those future necessities such a new car and changing neighborhoods. With the exception of winning the lottery not many people are in a financial position to make a “significant leap” without first planning and saving. You say you simply don’t do anything because you don’t know where to start…..maybe this would be a good start. Get some help. You can’t always do everything on your own.
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Hi Rob, I really feel the weight of your problems, my goodness I do having lived on the poverty line throughout my life. But just coping with your lovely children is a massive task all by itself I know, so why not let a wider community help you and let someone setup a, go-fund me page for you. I bet we could gather enough caring people to at least get you a new car and that would be one problem off of your long to-do list.
As for work, you do an incredible job writing your blog so why not ask a National or Local News paper if you could have space and be paid for a column for your autism blog, or any other subject you would like to write about or feel strongly about?
I did have my own small home daycare and cared for children with different abilities which was a delight as they taught me so much as all children do. Children with different kinds of autism amazed me with their skills of noticing every detail on our wildlife walks, it was such a pleasure to be part of their lives. Now I am mostly retired but keep in touch with all the children I cared for over the years as it is truly heart warming to see how they have all developed.
Please at least think about letting others take the load off with a Go-Fund Me page because you deserve some help.