A lot of you have been asking how I’m personally doing with my upcoming divorce. First of all, I truly appreciate your concern. Secondly, I haven’t really been talking about that part of this whole thing and instead remained focused on how the kids are doing because that’s the biggest part of my life.
When someone asks me how I’m doing, I don’t really know how to answer that. The truth is, it’s kind of a roller-coaster for me.
On most days, I’ve accepted the necessity of this and while it hurts, I know that I have no choice. At the same time, there is a difference between accepting something on a cognitive level and accepting it emotionally. The absolute truth is that I still struggle emotionally. There are times where I feel so completely alone and starving for adult conversation. I become scared that it will always be like this and that’s an awful feeling.
More often than not, however, I’m feeling okay. I’m so focused on the kids and trying to get them through this that I’m almost constantly occupied. I’m working very hard to get us into a better life. The podcast is growing and I’m booking interviews into January. As soon as the kids get back to school, I’ll be able to walk every morning again. Those are all positive things.
We have our trip to Florida coming up and it’s something the kids are really looking forward to.
All things considered, I’m holding my own. I’m depressed, heartbroken, exhausted and overwhelmed but I’m still getting back up when I fall and as long as I keep doing that, I’m surviving. Right now, that’s all I can ask for.
