He’s so proud of these battles, and he really believes he’s doing these things. We can ask him questions but not directly challenge his beliefs. We’ve been warned that his delusions are so deeply rooted, meaning he believes them so strongly, that it could be dangerous to try and get him to understand this stuff isn’t real.
I came home from Dr. Pattie’s in a horrible mood, which has carried through the evening and following me to bed early.
I wish there was something we could do to quiet the voices and make vanish the hallucinations. Unfortunately, nothing works and the Clozapine he’s currently on is preventing things from getting worse.
A warm and fuzzy thought is, if things are still this bad on medication, what happens when the meds stop working altogether? Clozapine is the Lost tightly controlled medication in the country, banned pretty much everywhere else in the world, and an absolute last ditch effort, to manage Schizophrenic symptoms.
There really isn’t any up from here.
As a father, my heart has been broken so many times, I don’t know ow how many more times it can be pieced back together.
I’m going to sleep tonight, with the aide of Zzzquil. Hopefully, a good night’s sleep won’t evade me tonight, and I’ll cope better with life in the morning.