I have therapy this afternoon and I’m looking forward to going. It’s tough for me to tell if it’s actually working or not but I’m learning some important things along the way.
The biggest issue in my life right now is everything surrounding my divorce. That includes all the things I’m personally learning to accept, as well as everything the kids are going through. Divorce makes everything more complicated and that makes an already challenging situation, more difficult to manage.
This will be my 4th or 5th session, I can’t remember. I like my therapist because she challenges me to think differently. It doesn’t really change things but it does help me to better accept the things outside of my control.
I know that there’s no going back and at this point, I also know that going through with the divorce is for the best, even if goes against everything I believe in and even though the kids won’t understand until they’re older. It’s my job to ensure their best interests and my personal feelings and all of this, can’t play an undo role in that.
At the end of the day, I have my kids and they have me. It’s stressful, frustrating, overwhelming and even lonely but it’s a beautiful burden and one that I’m incredibly lucky to carry.
My hope is that with time, I will be able to grow from this experience and not just be scarred by it. Therapy is definitely going to help with that.
Speaking of which, I need to get going…