I found myself really frustrated today and I’m not entirely sure why. Most of the time, I’m the odd man out in our house filled with Autism and truthfully, that can be difficult for me at times.
It’s like everyone around me is operating on the same operating system and I’m simply incompatible.
That probably sounds harsher than I intend it to but this does create problems for me on an almost daily basis.
Everyone else in the house struggles with sensory issues. Things like smells, sounds, lights, textures, tastes and even temperature are things that constantly influence behaviors.
No one in my family aside from me, does well with any type of change. It doesn’t matter if it’s a change for the better or for the worse, because it impacts them regardless. If Lizze and the boys had their way, everything would be exactly the same, every single day. We’re talking Groundhog Day kind of sameness.
You’re in a unique position. The struggle you experience is very similar to how it feels to be an autistic person surrounded by neurotypicals. The world is not built for us and our needs are often thrown aside as an inconvenience or too much trouble for something so minor.
It’s a blessing in disguise because I think it helps you to sympathize more with how it feels to be the different person in the room.
I was actually thinking about that tonight.. The fact I feel like an outsider gives me more insight… Well said.. ☺ Thank You