I slept pretty good last night, but I had weird dreams. It’s been a stressful week in a number of ways, and I’ve not really processed much of it.
Some of the week’s events have been hugely positive, like Lizze not needing surgery and Gavin making it through all his extensive testing. I even managed to get some projects completed.
That’s a good thing because that means food on the table and money for the bills.
There’s also been difficult moments, and those have weighed incredibly heavy. I’m spending as much time as I can with my grandmother, and I’m so grateful Lizze is in a place to allow me this opportunity.
I’m really struggling with everything going on with my grandmother, and I feel like I desperately need to cry right now, but I can’t. I cried in my dream last night I can’t while I’m awake. 😔
It’s so hard not to shut down right now. At the moment, it’s hour by hour and minute by minute.
Life has to keep moving forward and being an Autism parent means there’s a lot of life being thrown in my direction all the time.