I keep telling myself that it’s all gonna be okay

I keep telling myself that it’s all gonna be okay

Well, the kids are visiting their mom tonight. I still can’t believe those words are even coming out of my mouth, but they are.

I have so many mixed feelings about this but I’m definitely happy that the kids are seeing their mom. That’s so important to me and I will go to the ends of the Earth to support that.

On the other hand, I’m heartbroken and lonely.

Right after they left, I cut the grass for the first time in weeks. I honestly didn’t care about the yard for awhile but poor Ruby disappeared into the grass and we couldn’t see her anymore. It was time and I forced myself to get it done. It was a battle but I fought the lawn and I won. ☺

With that distraction no longer distracting me, I’m not sure what to do in a house this quiet and empty. It doesn’t feel right.

At the same time, I’m exhausted and in need of some downtime. I think I’ll order a pizza and find something to watch. I keep telling myself that it’s all gonna be okay. Someday I actually believe that.

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It will be okay. Maybe only little bits at a time, but more and more of them as time goes on. You have immense inner resources. Hang in there.


I’m so sorry, Rob.

Neil McDonald

It will be okay Rob

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