I really hope the next few weeks go smoothly because I really want this to happen for all of them, but I digress.
I know I sorta went off on a tangent there and that’s okay because it’s still therapeutic for me and maybe even interesting for you.
Yes, I’m struggling right now. I’m under a great deal of pressure and can’t really do much about it. My anxiety is a bit higher lately which can be distracting and depression is kicking my ass. I’m not sleeping well either because I can’t shut my brain off and that’s not helping matters at all. I’m hoping that writing will help me fall asleep tonight.
I’m working very hard to make good use this seemingly endless time. My goal is to come out the other end of this COVID-19 lockdown tunnel, in a better place then when we entered.
I want to use this time to get myself into better shape physically and achieve some much needed financial security as well. It would definitely be an added bonus if I can come out of this whole thing emotionally salvageable as well. I know all three of these goals are very possible and the good thing is, I have plenty of time to work on them.
I’m stronger than I give myself credit for and I know I will get myself and the kids through this difficult time in our lives. It’s important that I keep reminding myself of that because it’s easy to lose perspective, especially when you’ve been staring at the walls for 98 days straight.
As for writing, I’ve been working a lot and honestly, when I went on hiatus with the podcast, I sorta found it easier to take a break from everything. I really need to make an effort to write regularly because it helps me to better manage everything in my life. I’m really going to try and do better. I know this isn’t the first time I’ve said that but all I can do is keep trying.
Please take COVID-19 seriously. There are many people out there, like my son, who are counting on everyone to be responsible. I really don’t see why it’s so hard to wear a mask when out in public. We do it for you, please do it for us.