What I do know is that things will get better. I know that your life matters and the world is a better place because you’re in it. It might not feel like that right now but it’s so important to remember that depression lies to you.
Speaking only for myself here, depression tries very hard to convince me that I’m worthless. Depression wants me to think that the I’ll never succeed. Depression tries to coerce me into shutting down and giving up. Depression wants me to believe that my wife and kids would be better off without me.
On most days, I’m able to fight these thoughts off and recognize that depression is trying to exert control over my life. Sometimes, especially around the holidays, it’s much harder to see though the tricks depression continuously plays on me and I can begin to believe the lies.
I know the holidays can be hard but I want you to know that you aren’t alone. There are many people out there struggling in similar ways. Depression is hard and anyone that says otherwise has no idea what they’re talking about. Someone was talking about struggling with addiction the other day and said something really profound. Feelings are not facts. I really like that and think it can apply to those living with depression as well.
I get that it can be hard to hold on, especially when giving up begins to make sense. Please don’t give up. The darkness won’t last forever and your life matters. The world is a brighter place with you in it. ☺
I’m going to be blunt and and directly address one more thing before calling it a night. If you are thinking about taking your own life, get help. Suicide is never the answer and if you’re in a place where depression is convincing you that it makes sense, you need help right way.
Please reach out to someone. No matter what time of day or night it is, call a friend or family member. Tell them the truth and ask for help.
You can also call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255.
Hang in there. The darkness will pass. Please keep talking and never suffer in silence.